...comes with great responsibility.

I am always responsible for something. The good, the bad and the undone. I do not complain, at least I try not to, despite the workload.

The origin of this sh*t is rooted in elementary(ele.) school. I call it sh*t cos it is gradually messing with my life and I wanna 'fess up. But I can't cos I put myself into it voluntarily and some madaf*ckers encouragingly tell me that I am on the track for greatness. Excuse me?

I was a Cub Scout chic in ele. school. It was all fun then cos I spent some many weekends at camp. Smh, the akela(scout staff head) made me the target person. I was usually the leader of my pack. Not bad bah.

Fast forward to high school, my principal always asked me the questions whenever something went wrong and the yeye teachers sent me on spy missions. Excusez-moi. Sometimes, I was one of the offenders and I never portrayed myself as a "goody-two-shoes".wtf? I had a life. This was the point in my life, when I learnt the importance of my somewhat different persona facades. I did my runs, yet, I was chosen for almost every outing/excursion. I don't even know I how I got my self on the exco board of up to 5 clubs and other snr student ish. I was not even jaspepe. One of my gra-gra buddies asked me if I was humble so as to gain this attn. I was even confused.

Oh college! God bless Yankee. I did not need to juggle both lives cos I am in a far-from-conservative environment. But this my internship is getting to me. Part of my job requires me to work with the President of my college on a few projects. His assistant got me on my toes this morning cos I spelt "Theatre" the British way in the description for the event's handbook. Why do I have to be responsible for every effing thing?

The most pending long-term project I have now is smh. I am the chair of my school's International Student Organisation. I have ideas rushing thru but I need to plan the logistics, which I don't like bothering myself with. My co-excos like my ideas but they are all in 4 different Asian countries, as I write. Thus, there is hardly a consensus, when I take steps, till September. Well, I am the first non-Asian to be the head. This is the point, when the "with power come great responsibility' comes to play. I want to re brand but I do not seek utopia.

One cannot satisfy everyone.

I don't know if people go through this cos I have never explained this to anyone before.

"A new position of responsibility will usually show a man to be a far stronger creature than was supposed." ~William James